Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Update....and back at it??

My last update was Valentine's Day and here we are, past Labor Day now. Here's the latest.

I've lost about 20 lbs.

Wanna know how? Check out my "how I list the weight" post.

I got an allergy panel done and have been avoiding the foods I'm sensitive to for over a month now, including gluten, wheat, cow's milk and wacky stuff like bananas, mushrooms, lemon and peaches.

I'm also taking a homeopathic remedy that has really helped with my belly issues--namely the feeling like I had a bubble in my stomach that would never pop.

I've had a little bit of light-headedness and some low-energy days so I'm still figuring out how to bulk up on protein and good fats. Over all, though, I feel better than I have in many years, especially my stomach.

The boys are now 8 and 5 and both in school all day at our neighborhood public school. I'm still adjusting to that and so far, it's wonderful. They're doing karate now, too, so our weeks are pleasantly busy.

Speaking of busy, August was insanely busy with church stuff so I've been trying to cut back and get more down time in September. We've been reorganizing the house, too, and working on some projects.

And just this week, my husband is putting the pressure on to or never?? He doesn't like being stuck in indecision and he wants to get on with it. I get that.

So it's decision time: are we done or do we go for #3?

Yes, we've been here before. No, I'm no more clear on what I want. I don't feel done....but I don't feel this draw to have another baby, to mother another child.

What do you do when you just don't know?! 

We tried for a while to no avail so of course there are no guarantees. I have changed--even just with the changes I made at the start of 2014, my body adjusted and has continued to adjust. I was last pregnant in 2009! I am a very different woman now.

There are pros and cons, so many things to consider, so much to think about....but then there's the simple question of "Why NOT roll the dice one more time??"

I believe I'd like to be a mommy to another human. I'd like to raise another kid. I'd like to bring another person into the world, into this family. I'd like to take one more leap of faith.

Hear that sound in the distance? It's me saying, "Wheeeeeeee!!!".....