It's October 15, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.
My candle is lit tonight as I honor the mamas who have lost babies or who have struggled with infertility as well as those who have aborted babies. If you are one of those women, I'm praying for you tonight.
When we had an early miscarriage in 2009, I was very honest about what happened and was AMAZED at how many other women had lost babies. It's heart breaking. And it's the reason I started God Knits.
I do have a private Facebook group for God Knits if you'd care to join, where we can support and encourage each other (or vent or cry or whatever you want). It's private but I believe you can request to be added.
God Knits Facebook group
If you aren't aware, we've been trying to get pregnant off and on for exactly three years now, a total of 18 times to date. I finally bought some ovulation predictor strips to try out and if that doesn't work soon, we'll both get checked out to see what's going on. There's also a chance that we'll just resign ourselves to the idea that it's not meant to be.
We also know that, well, I'm almost 38. It has been difficult at times but now, it's almost to the point where I don't even care anymore. I know that if it happens, it will be in God's perfect timing, just like every time before (we got pregnant on the first try twice in a row!). And if it doesn't, I am OK with that. But if I seem a little sad every 34 days or so, you'll know why.
This motherhood stuff is hard, plain and simple. And that's why we're here.